THE CANCER DEVIL


Cancer fills my thoughts

All day and every night

It rules my life, it’s always there

Alone, I shake with fright



It grows inside, a silent threat

A time bomb in my body

And when it blows, it spreads itself

Not even saying sorry



Alone I cry, alone I sob

“ Why me ? “ I say to no-one

I feel so sorry for myself

Am I the only one ?



Our time is now so precious

Every second counts

Every hour spent with you

Tiny, small amounts



I love you Paula darling

I promised you “ Forever “

I’ll keep my promise sweetheart

You watch me, ‘cause I’m clever



I’m sick of feeling tired

I’m tired of feeling sick

I’m going to fight this Devil

It must think that I’m thick



I watch the flowers as they grow

Each day a brand new dawn

Each Sun-break is a bonus

I’ll fight this Devil’s spawn



The time I’ve left I’ll spend with you

Forever and a day

God willing, I’ll be with you

As we turn old and grey



We all face death at some time

Each of us will pass

So spare me just a few more years

Don’t put me out to grass



I found you, and I’ve loved you

“ Always “ was our song

But now the Devil’s after me

What did I do wrong ?



They say I’m in remission

That’s good news, so I’m told

I still feel like a ticking bomb

So please let me grow old



Just hold me when I’m angry

“ Cuddles “ when I’m sad

Forgive me being grumpy

This Cancer drives me mad



“ It isn’t fair ! “ I want to shout

To love, such little time

Make the most of every day

Together, so sublime



Starting with tomorrow

The fight I will continue

I’ll slay this Demon Dragon

With every nerve and sinew



Stay near me my sweetheart

We’ll slay this beast together

Look forward to our lives

Because “ We are Forever ! “



 

CANCER COUNTDOWN


I feel my time is finished

The fight in me has gone

Time to shed these earthly bonds

And join that mighty one



The ‘Chemo’ gave me some reprieve

Remission loomed ahead

Then cancer cells returned again

Now trapped at home in bed



I think about the treatments

Of endless days in care

Trying to extend my life

From cancer oh so rare



Then hope on the horizon

I went into remission

A chance to start my life again

To finish my life’s mission



For months the illness left me

My hair began to grow

My family re-united

But little did I know



That cancer cells lie dormant

A ticking bomb within

To return when least expected

Invade me once again



‘Don’t give up hope’ my family said

A futile thing to say

The cancer is ‘Aggressive’

It wont just go away



I lie alone inside this room

Today I’m going to Die

I call upon my family

A chance to say ‘Goodbye’



Don’t be sad, and please don’t cry

I journey now alone

The fear of Death is gone from me

It’s my turn to go home !



 

THE HOSPICE


I wait inside this hospice

For death to come inside

My wife she comes to visit

Her tears she tries to hide



Silent words they come

From deep within her eyes

Each day of my survival

Delighted, but surprised



How much longer must I put

My loved ones through this grief

How much longer till the day

They lay the final wreath



‘ How are you today ‘

The Doctors always ask

A pretty silly thing to say

Don’t envy them their task



I’m feeling such a burden

Dependent on their skills

Tending to my every need

They must have iron wills



I pray each night to not awake

I ask it of the Nurse

Increase my dose of morphine

To end this cancer curse



But their task’s to save a life

Not cut my journey short

If only I was able

This mission I’d abort



Words of comfort reach me

Repeated every day

My loved ones I don’t envy

They don’t know what to say



I had to laugh this morning

A card it came around

‘ Get well soon ‘ it said to me

I’ll have it on my mound



I woke this morning knowing

My day it had arrived

An inner voice within me

Prepared me for the slide



I slid into a coma

Late this afternoon

But still I saw my relatives

Gathered in my room



You don’t need eyes to see such love

My soul already risen

I looked down on my family

Released from Worldly prison



My wife she clasped my hand

But little did she know

My shell was lying on the bed

Whilst I was in the glow



I want to tell her sorry

For ending life like this

For leaving her alone and sad

She gave me one last kiss



‘ Time of death recorded ‘

By Doctors standing near

‘ Your Husbands pain is over ‘

They whisper in her ear



I know she’ll join me one day

United then we’ll be

Together on our journey

The way it’s meant to be



Paula



 

AN ODE TO THE CANCER GODS




C….. Can’t believe I’ve got it



A….. Anger when I have



N….. Nervous at the Doctors



C….. Cells all going mad



E….. Exhausted with the treatments



R….. Re-live your dreams with loved ones, enjoy the love you have

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